as february 20th gets closer and closer i get a little more nervous everyday. its a good kind of nervous though, more like excited.

most of the hard things are done, my mom basically planned everything, and im so thankful for that because thats definatly not my thing. she loves this kind of thing, im sure she would love to quit her job and just be a wedding planner. with her doing all the work it has given me a little piece of mind because i know everything will be perfect. she gives me and ry a list of things to do each week and we try to help her the best we can. secretly we would just have rather taken the money spent and eloped though. my grandma and grandpa eloped and even though she "doesnt like to tell everyone" she loves to tell it. i think it would have been so fun and spontaneous but i couldn't be happier with how things are going. and i cant wait for the next 29 days to be over thats for sure.

being engaged is really actually quite hard, ive had people tell me that and i can honestly say it has been the hardest part of our relationship. we have learned a lot about each other and us during this time. we never argued before we got engaged but now we have stupid little arguments about the dumbest things. i also have this uncontrollable problem called worrying, when im pms-ing or when im under stress i tend to take little things and make them a lot bigger than they need to be. sometimes i even have little break downs. i already knew this but i have learned something about ryan during stressful times. he always knows when something is wrong, and he always knows how to make me feel better. he just hugs me and tells me how everything is going to be alright and gives me reasons why we will always be happy. it it one of the greatest feelings in the world to know that i have a best friend who will always be there for me.

besides my mom and ryan i have so many people to be thankful for in this planning process.
*my grandma lola because she is going to do all my flowers exactly how i want them :)
*my grandma latrese because she is teaching me how to be a good cook: bread, chicken noodle soup and in the summer hopefully she will be able to teach me how to can :)
* my cousin heidi, she took all our photos and has made everything so stress-less, i am glad i dont have to worry about our invitations and photos they will be perfect!
*my future sis rach, she is making our cake and this is no small task, she has spent hours and hours doing practice cakes :)
*ryans uncle is printing our invitations and also printing most of the addresses directly on the envelops, also saving lots of time and stress!
*ry's mom cuz she always just loves to talk to me and help with everything :) i couldnt ask for a better 2nd family!!

i know im forgetting people :( im sorry but im thankful for everyone :)

im mostly nervous about becoming a wifey. im not a terribly great cook, probably because my mother is a bomb cook and i never really had to growing up. so ive been practicing a lot lately, hopefully we dont starve. i feel good about my cleaning skills though because i actually had to clean growing up and it will be fun to have a home of my own to keep clean. also laundry will be a piece of cake :) so anyone feel free to give me some recipes or tips im very open to suggestions!!

:) only 29 days left hopefully i make it! :)

ry and i had a really fun weeked this weekend...

one of his very favorite uncles came all the way from texas for their annual ski trip in utah. and we were able to go down to ski with them.

friday we skiied at deer valley..which was a great experience.

A day pass there is roughly 96$ but we got lucky and scored a free pass from my friends shaun and rhet who work there. im sure lots of people might have heard of deer valley. its a ritzy little ski only hill and is one of the nicer resorts that i know of, so naturally we were a little nervous about how this day was going to go with all the rich and snooty people.

** our first experience with the upper class usa started early in the parking lot...we were minding our own business just putting our ski boots on when a lovely man decided our of all the cars to walk beside he HAD to walk by ours. ryans door was open because he was putting his boots on while he was sitting half in the car. the man proceeded to stand there as if he was waiting for ryan to just close his door so he could continue on his way. (note: there is literally 1000 other ways to walk where he is trying to go) ryan gets out of the car and closes his door so the man could go by and says sorry man....and he says oh yeah surrreeee you are...

**the second experience was with the lovely people who work there. we were on our first run of the day with the whole group, going a little slow down a beginners run, and ryan, i, his uncle and cousin were waiting for everyone else to catch up to us. when out of the blue a ski instructor/teacher comes briskly skiing over to me. she says " oh my gosh i love your pants i just want to push you over into those trees and take them off you...?" ha ha i was just kinda speechless...a little awkward even. it became the joke of the day for sure..

ryan had 0 wrecks that day which was a personal record, not that there was anything to wreck on. and i had one...it wasnt really a wreck just an incident where i slipped out from under myself and bent my pole completely in half.

it was all in all an interesting day, we opted out of the 18 $ cheeseburgers and the 15 $ soup for a turkey sandwich for maverick. we are that cool

saturday we got to ski at the canyons which is always a fun place but nothing really happend to exciting thereit was just a regular happy ski day :)

saturday night we met up with the family...ry's uncle and parents and brothers and sisters..and went to Buca De Beppos, which was an experience for sure. anyone who hasnt been there should definatly go there at least once in there lifetime :) it is a huge italian family resturant that has two portion sizes, one that feeds2-3 people and one that feeds 5-6. its like thanksgiving. :) and i dont think i've laughed as hard as i did that night in forever. ryans brother has two kids who were anything but quiet and the people in the booth behind us were anything but pleased with the ammounts of noise that was streaming from our table. and the quote of the night comes from a three year old.... our cute niece was getting semi-scolded for being to loud and ryan was kinda staring at her/in a daze due to the hard days of skiing...and she noticed the stare and immediately said, " what the heck are YOU staring at". im still laughing about it as i write it down. kids say the funniest things :)

and last but not least on sunday we went tubing in park city at the gorgoza tubing park... i thought it would be totally lame because it was full of smaller kids but we actually ended up having a blast, they had some pretty big hills and some nice jumps!

all in all a great adventure!